Little drop of poison

Scriu cu aceeasi grimasa de scarba cu care am iesit din casa de pe strada Stejar acum un an si ceva. Simt aceeasi greata, amplificata mereu si mereu, fata de ea si fata de toate celelalte, fiecare urata cu draci in frumusetea ei geniala, fiecare doar o picatura de parfum intr-un butoi cu apa de ploaie. Ma lipsesc de farmecele voastre ale tuturor celor cu care m-am oblojit in toata vremea asta, pentru ca mangaierea voastra e falsa de la un capat la altul al obrazului si vorba va e goala de sus pana jos si mai departe. Orice zambet primit cere vieti de zambete inapoi, orice noapte lunga cheama ani buni intru rasplata, nimic nu e lipsit de importanta si lipsit de pret, nimic fara urmari, caderi si scarba. Probabil pentru ca am mancat mult la cina, pentru ca visez mereu cum v-o trageti cu scursuri sau pentru ca tocmai am dat pauza filmului "Mala Moskwa" cand e aproape de sfarsit, senzatia de voma e acum aici sa stea, undeva intre faringe si esofag, intre mine si voi, bucati de carne fara importanta, banale ale nimanui fapturi, femei intre oameni, nimicuri adorate, va urasc.
Maine o sa va iubesc din nou. In definitiv, suntem toti o apa si-un pamant.

Tom Waits - Little drop of poison


I like my town with a little drop of poison
Nobody knows they're lining up to go insane
I'm all alone, I smoke my friends down to the filter
But I feel much cleaner after it rains

She left in the fall, that's her picture on the wall
She always had that little drop of poison
She left in the fall, that's her picture on the wall
She always had that little drop of poison

Did the devil make the world while god was sleeping
Someone said you'll never get a wish from a bone
Another wrong good-bye and a hundred sailors
That deep blue sky is my home

She left in the fall, that's her picture on the wall
She always had that little drop of poison
She left in the fall, that's her picture on the wall
She always had that little drop of poison

A rat always knows when he's in with weasels
Here you lose a little every day
I remember when a million was a million
They all have ways to make you pay
They all have ways to make you pay